I'M BACK..

OK SO SORRY I HAVEN'T WRITTEN SINCE THAT LAST TIME WE SPOKE BUT I WAS SO BUSY WITH FASHION WEEK WALKING AS A MODEL AND SHOOTING SOME TV SHOWS BUT I WILL GET TO THAT SOON.

OK SO LAST TIME WE TALKED I WAS TALKING ABOUT THE MAKINGS OF MY WONDERFUL SISTER..NOW IM GONNA TAKE YOU DEEPER THEN BEFORE. SO WHERE I LEFT OFF I WAS TEN YEARS OLD.
SO GROWING UP BEING THE OLDEST I WAS LOVING IT. I WENT TO SCHOOL RIGHT UP THE BLOCK AND I WENT TO THIS AFTER SCHOOL PROGRAM EVERY DAY AFTER SCHOOL WHERE I WAS ALSO DANCING AT. THE AFTER SCHOOL PROGRAM WAS RIGHT DOWN THE BLOCK FROM WHERE I LIVED..
ONE DAY LIKE NO OTHER I WENT TO THE PROGRAM AND THOUGHT IT WAS JUST GONNA BE LIKE ANY OTHER DAY ME DOING MY HOMEWORK HANGING WITH FRIENDS AND GOING TO DANCE CLASS. I WAS WRONG. THERE WAS THIS STAFF THAT WAS WORKING THERE WHO WAS 16 YEARS OLD AND HE HAD THIS TOY THAT HE WAS PLAYING WITH THAT I LIKED AND ME BEING TEN I WAS LIKE I WANT THAT TOY SO HE WAS LIKE FOLLOW ME TO THE BATHROOM.ME BEING TEN I DIDN'T KNOW NO BETTER I WENT TO THE BATHROOM AND THAT'S WHEN IT HAPPENED.
HE GRAB MY FACE PULLED ME TO THE BACK OF THE BATHROOM AND COVERED MY MONTH PULLED DOWN MY PANT'S AND RAPED ME. THE MOST PAINFUL THING THAT I EVER THOUGHT WOULD HAPPEN TO ME BUT YEA RIGHT MORE TO COME.. AS HE STUCK ME WITH HIS PRIVATE OR TO MOST PEOPLE DICK WHICH BY THE WAY WAS SO BIG FOR ME BEING JUST 10. ALL I COULD DO WAS CRY AND AS I WAS CRYING HE TOLD ME I BETTER SHUT UP HE HAD HIS HAND OVER MY FACE SO I COULDN'T SCREAM FOR HELP AND NO ONE COULD HEAR ME. AT THAT POINT ALL I DID WAS PRAY FOR SOMEONE TO COME INTO THE BATHROOM AND HELP ME. NEVER HAPPEN...
WHEN HE WAS DONE WHICH WASN'T THAT LONG HE TOLD ME NOT TELL ANYONE OR ELSE. I WAS SO SCARED.
SO WHEN HE WAS DONE I WENT HOME AND I TOLD MY MOM WHAT HAPPEN AND ALL HELL BROKE LOSE. THEY TOOK ME TO THE HOSPITAL TO CHECK ME BECAUSE I WAS BLEEDING. TO HAVE 4 DOCTORS COME AND STICK THERE FINGERS IN MY LITTLE BOOTY WAS EVEN MORE PAINFUL. BECAUSE OF THE BLEEDING THEY HAD TO FIND OUT IF MY ANUS WAS NOT DAMAGED. AS I WAS GETTING THAT DONE MY MOM WAS SPEAKING COPS AND THEN FILED OUT A REPORT. SCARY RIGHT. ME BEING JUST TEN AND FOR SOMEONE TO DO THAT TO A LITTLE KID IS JUST CRAZY. ANYWAY HE WAS FIRED FROM WORK AND ARRESTED AND I THOUGHT I WOULD NEVER SEE HIM AGAIN LITTLE DID I KNOW THAT HE WILL TRY TO RAPE ME AGAIN..BUT I WAS READY...
SICK PEOPLE DO SICK THINGS IN THIS WORLD AND THAT JUST MADE ME MORE AWARE OF TO WHAT WAS GONNA COME OUT OF LIFE..