SO WE LIVED IN 1779 FULTON IN THE BRONX AND I WAS AMAZING 3 BEDROOM APARTMENT, CHRISTMAS WAS ALWAYS GREAT, PARTIES, EVERYTHING WAS GREAT. BUT SOMETHING WAS MISSING.
SO AT THAT TIME MY MOM AND DAD HAD A LOT OF KIDS LOL 6 TO ON POINT BUT IT WASN'T OVER YET.
OK SO I WAS 10 YEARS OLD AND ONE NIGHT MY TUMMY WAS HURTING SO BAD THAT I WALKED INTO MY DAD AND MOMS ROOM AND SAW THEM GETTING DOWN AND DIRTY LMFAO. I WAS LIKE WHAT ARE THEY DOING WHY IS MY DAD ON MY MOM PUMPING LIKE THAT. I DIDN'T KNOW LOL.. SO SAD THAT MY DAD WANTED TO GET HIS RELEASE THAT HE TOOK ME TO THE KITCHEN AND GAVE ME A BOWL OF CEREAL. REALLY LMFAO I WAS IN PAIN AND YOU GIVE ME CEREAL. COME TO FIND OUT MY ASS HAD TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL AND GET MY APPENDIX TAKEN OUT. IT WAS CLOSE TO BUSTING AND THE DOCTOR SAID IM WAS LUCKY TO COME IN TIME BEFORE IT DID.
SO ANYWAY THAT SAME YEAR SOMETHING HAD HAPPEN TO ME BUT I WILL GET TO THERE SOON AND YOU WONT WANT TO MISS IT.
SO WHERE WAS I OK MY DAD AND MOM GOT IT ON AND I WENT TO THE HOSPITAL. SO YEA WE WERE MISSING SOMETHING IN OUR LIVES AND 9 MONTHS LATER OUR SISTER NAMED ALEXIS GINA LOPEZ WAS BORN.. OMG WE FINALLY HAD A GIRL IN OUR FAMILY AND WE WERE SO HAPPY. I GAVE HER THE NAME ALEXIS AT 10 LOL AND I LOVED IT. SHE WAS SO PRECIOUS. SO SMALL SO PRETTY AND I WAS SO HAPPY WHEN MY MOM CALLED US IN THE HOUSE TO TELL US THAT IT WAS A GIRL. ME, CARLOS, LUIS, JONATHAN, MATHEW,PAUL AND NOW ALEXIS. 7 OF US DAMN REALLY MOM AND DAD BUT HEY IT WORKED OUT FOR US. I WAS SO HAPPY THAT WE HAD OUR SISTER...
Friday, August 19, 2011
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
HAPPEN...
OK SO GROWING UP WAS A BREATH OF FRESH AIR. I MEAN TO BE BORN WAS PERFECT. WHAT CAN ANYONE ASK FOR RIGHT WRONG. I WANTED MORE THEN LIFE, LIKE I FELT I NEEDED MORE BUT I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT IT WAS.
ANYWAY SO I REMEMBER BEING 5 OR 6 YEARS OLD GOING TO SCHOOL FOR THE FIRST TIME WAS FUN. BACK IN THE DAY THE STYLE WAS SO DIFFERENT FROM WHAT IT IS NOW LOL BUT ANYWAY MY TEACHERS NAME WAS MS JERRY. WOW I REALLY REMEMBER HER SHE WAS A HEAVY LADY WITH GLASSES BUT SHE WAS SO NICE I LOVED HER. I THOUGHT THAT WAS GONNA BE MY TEACHER FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. I WAS WRONG LOL.
I WAS BORN AND RAISED IN THE BRONX AROUND 180TH AND PROSPECT. SO 1ST GRADE WAS SOO FUN AND WHEN I SAY SO MUCH FUN I MEAN FUN LOL TEACHERS NAME WAS MS SHORTS LMFAO AND SHE USE TO GIVE US FOOD IF WE DIDN'T EAT AT HOME. WHICH I REALLY DIDN'T. ME AND ONE OF MY BROTHERS NAMED CARLOS WENT TO THE SAME SCHOOL AND CLASS WITH OUR CUZ WHICH HE WASN'T OUR CUZ BUT TO US HE WAS PA-PA WAS HIS NAME. ME AND HIM USE TO FIGHT EVERYDAY AND I MEAN EVERYDAY LOL WE WERE YOUNG SO I MEAN WE DIDN'T NO BETTER. WE USE TO RUN AROUND THE SCHOOL AND CUT CLASS IN THE FIRST GRADE I MEAN WHO DOES THAT.. WE DID.. WE HAD SO MUCH FUN..
ANY-WHO SO I LIVED IN A 2 BEDROOM APARTMENT ONE ROOM WAS ME, MY DAD, MY MOM, AND 2 OF MY BROTHERS, NEXT ROOM WAS MY AUNT AND HER KIDS LOL. MONEY WAS HARD TO COME BY SO YOU KNOW WE HAD TO DO WHAT WE HAD TO DO AND I GUESS STAYING THERE WAS OK BUT I NEEDED SPACE. MY AUNTS AND COUSINS AND GRAND PARENTS LIVED ON THE SAME BLOCK IT WAS PERFECT HAVING FAMILY THERE..
OK SO I REMEMBER GOING TO SESAME STREET WITH MY DAD AND MY 2 BROTHERS CARLOS AND LUIS. WE WERE YOUNG AND WERE HAVING SO MUCH FUN UNTIL MY DAD LET US GO ON THIS SLIDE AND THEN WHEN WE GOT DOWN HE WAS GONE. OMG WE WERE CRYING LIKE LIL BITCH'S LOL COME TO FIND OUT HE WENT TO GET SOMETHING TO DRINK AND WAS LOOKING RIGHT AT US CRY LMFAO. THAT'S WAS SO BAD FOR HIM TO DO..
AFTER YEARS I THINK I WAS LIKE 7 OR 8 WHEN WE MOVED OUT AND MOVED TO 1779 FULTON AVE APT 5A IN THE BRONX IT WAS PERFECT SCHOOL WAS RIGHT DOWN THE BLOCK PARK ACROSS THE STREET IT WAS PERFECT. OR SO I THOUGHT. THAT'S WHEN EVERYTHING STARTED TO HAPPEN...I KNEW I WAS DIFFERENT BUT I WAS TO YOUNG TO KNOW MY FEELINGS..
ANYWAY SO I REMEMBER BEING 5 OR 6 YEARS OLD GOING TO SCHOOL FOR THE FIRST TIME WAS FUN. BACK IN THE DAY THE STYLE WAS SO DIFFERENT FROM WHAT IT IS NOW LOL BUT ANYWAY MY TEACHERS NAME WAS MS JERRY. WOW I REALLY REMEMBER HER SHE WAS A HEAVY LADY WITH GLASSES BUT SHE WAS SO NICE I LOVED HER. I THOUGHT THAT WAS GONNA BE MY TEACHER FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. I WAS WRONG LOL.
I WAS BORN AND RAISED IN THE BRONX AROUND 180TH AND PROSPECT. SO 1ST GRADE WAS SOO FUN AND WHEN I SAY SO MUCH FUN I MEAN FUN LOL TEACHERS NAME WAS MS SHORTS LMFAO AND SHE USE TO GIVE US FOOD IF WE DIDN'T EAT AT HOME. WHICH I REALLY DIDN'T. ME AND ONE OF MY BROTHERS NAMED CARLOS WENT TO THE SAME SCHOOL AND CLASS WITH OUR CUZ WHICH HE WASN'T OUR CUZ BUT TO US HE WAS PA-PA WAS HIS NAME. ME AND HIM USE TO FIGHT EVERYDAY AND I MEAN EVERYDAY LOL WE WERE YOUNG SO I MEAN WE DIDN'T NO BETTER. WE USE TO RUN AROUND THE SCHOOL AND CUT CLASS IN THE FIRST GRADE I MEAN WHO DOES THAT.. WE DID.. WE HAD SO MUCH FUN..
ANY-WHO SO I LIVED IN A 2 BEDROOM APARTMENT ONE ROOM WAS ME, MY DAD, MY MOM, AND 2 OF MY BROTHERS, NEXT ROOM WAS MY AUNT AND HER KIDS LOL. MONEY WAS HARD TO COME BY SO YOU KNOW WE HAD TO DO WHAT WE HAD TO DO AND I GUESS STAYING THERE WAS OK BUT I NEEDED SPACE. MY AUNTS AND COUSINS AND GRAND PARENTS LIVED ON THE SAME BLOCK IT WAS PERFECT HAVING FAMILY THERE..
OK SO I REMEMBER GOING TO SESAME STREET WITH MY DAD AND MY 2 BROTHERS CARLOS AND LUIS. WE WERE YOUNG AND WERE HAVING SO MUCH FUN UNTIL MY DAD LET US GO ON THIS SLIDE AND THEN WHEN WE GOT DOWN HE WAS GONE. OMG WE WERE CRYING LIKE LIL BITCH'S LOL COME TO FIND OUT HE WENT TO GET SOMETHING TO DRINK AND WAS LOOKING RIGHT AT US CRY LMFAO. THAT'S WAS SO BAD FOR HIM TO DO..
AFTER YEARS I THINK I WAS LIKE 7 OR 8 WHEN WE MOVED OUT AND MOVED TO 1779 FULTON AVE APT 5A IN THE BRONX IT WAS PERFECT SCHOOL WAS RIGHT DOWN THE BLOCK PARK ACROSS THE STREET IT WAS PERFECT. OR SO I THOUGHT. THAT'S WHEN EVERYTHING STARTED TO HAPPEN...I KNEW I WAS DIFFERENT BUT I WAS TO YOUNG TO KNOW MY FEELINGS..
Monday, August 15, 2011
IT STARTS HERE....
SO WHAT I AM GOING TO DO IS TAKE YOU BACK INTO MY LIFE SO THAT YOU CAN GET TO KNOW ME BETTER..
SO MUCH HAS HAPPEN TO ME TO THIS POINT THAT ALL I COULD THINK ABOUT WAS TO WRITE IT.. FROM THE BEING RAPED, THE SEX, CLUBBING, BEING POPULAR,BEING A GAY MAN, FAMILY, WORK, SCHOOL, CAREER, FRIENDS AND EVEN LOVE. ALL THIS SUMS UP MY LIFE AND I KNOW IT WILL SUM UP YOURS AS WELL..
SO IF YOUR READING I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT WHAT EVER YOU ARE GOING THREW ANYTHING GOOD CAN COME OUT OF IT AND NOT TO GIVE UP...
MY JOURNEY BEGINS WHEN I WAS BORN I KNOW I SAID TEN BUT HEY BEING BORN WAS THE BEST THING TO HAPPEN TO ME LOL
I WAS BORN ON FEBRUARY 3RD, 1986 IN NYC, GOSH THAT FEELS LIKE A LONG TIME LOL BUT ITS NOT..MY MOMS NAME WAS ARLEEN AND MY DAD ANTONIO LOPEZ.. MY MOM WAS 16 AND MY DAD WAS 18 WHEN THEY HAD ME.BACK THEN IT FELT LIKE PEACE BECAUSE I DIDNT KNOW WHAT THE WORLD WAS GOING TO BRING ME. MY NAME WAS ANTONIO LOPEZ JR...I WAS READY TO TAKE THE STEPS INTO THIS NEW LIFE THAT WAS GIVEN TO ME BY MY PARENTS AND GOD..
SO MUCH HAS HAPPEN TO ME TO THIS POINT THAT ALL I COULD THINK ABOUT WAS TO WRITE IT.. FROM THE BEING RAPED, THE SEX, CLUBBING, BEING POPULAR,BEING A GAY MAN, FAMILY, WORK, SCHOOL, CAREER, FRIENDS AND EVEN LOVE. ALL THIS SUMS UP MY LIFE AND I KNOW IT WILL SUM UP YOURS AS WELL..
SO IF YOUR READING I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT WHAT EVER YOU ARE GOING THREW ANYTHING GOOD CAN COME OUT OF IT AND NOT TO GIVE UP...
MY JOURNEY BEGINS WHEN I WAS BORN I KNOW I SAID TEN BUT HEY BEING BORN WAS THE BEST THING TO HAPPEN TO ME LOL
I WAS BORN ON FEBRUARY 3RD, 1986 IN NYC, GOSH THAT FEELS LIKE A LONG TIME LOL BUT ITS NOT..MY MOMS NAME WAS ARLEEN AND MY DAD ANTONIO LOPEZ.. MY MOM WAS 16 AND MY DAD WAS 18 WHEN THEY HAD ME.BACK THEN IT FELT LIKE PEACE BECAUSE I DIDNT KNOW WHAT THE WORLD WAS GOING TO BRING ME. MY NAME WAS ANTONIO LOPEZ JR...I WAS READY TO TAKE THE STEPS INTO THIS NEW LIFE THAT WAS GIVEN TO ME BY MY PARENTS AND GOD..
Sunday, August 14, 2011
THE START INTO MY LIFE....
SORRY IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO START WRITING AGAIN BUT I HAVE BEEN SO BUSY TO THE POINT OF ALSO TRYING TO FIND THE PERFECT WORDS. I MEAN WHEN YOU GO THREW LIFE THINKING THAT YOU KNOW IT ALL IT COMES BACK TO KICK YOU IN THE ASS. I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO GET THREW SOME TUFF TIMES AND ONLY ONE PERSON HAS BEEN THERE TO HELP ME.
ONE OF THE THINGS THAT HAPPENED TO ME WAS MY FAMILY'S HOUSE WAS RATED BY COPS. I KNOW RIGHT WTF,BUT YEA THEY SAID THAT MY MOTHERS HOUSE HAD DRUGS AND THEY TOOK EVERYONE BUT LEFT MY LIL SISTER, TO BE IN THE COURT ROOM AND SEE ALL YOUR BROTHERS IN HANDCUFF AND YOUR MOM AND DAD IS SO PAINFUL, I JUST STARTED CRYING. IT WAS A HARD TIME FOR US TO GO THREW BUT WE AS A FAMILY CAME TOGETHER AND IT MADE IT OK.
ANOTHER THING WAS GETTING A PHONE CALL ONE DAY THAT MY MOM AND DAD WAS ARGUING AND THERE RELATIONSHIP WAS ON THE ICE AND WHAT I MEAN BY THAT WAS DIVORCE.!!! I MEAN 7 GREAT KIDS AND 27 YEARS TOGETHER THAT'S HARD TO THROW AWAY. SO WE HAD TO DO WHAT ANY FAMILY WOULD DO AND WE CAME TOGETHER AND TALKED ABOUT HOW CAN WE MAKE THINGS WORK.
HAVING A FATHER THAT USE TO BE THERE BUT GAVE UP ON ALL HIS KIDS IS THE WORST THING ANYONE CAN GO THREW UNTIL YOU HAVE ENOUGH. I MEAN MY DAD WAS A SUPPER DAD AND HE AND MY MOM WERE A TEAM UNTIL MY DAD GOT LAZY AND LET EVERYTHING GO. MY MOM WAS OVER IT AND SHE WAS TIRED AFTER SO MANY YEARS. BUT WE CAME TOGETHER AS A FAMILY TO TALK IT OUT.
GETTING MARRIED AND HAVING ONLY MY MOM BE THERE AND ONE OF MY BROTHERS AND MY LIL SISTER FELT LIKE NO ONE CARED BUT THEM.
I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO BRAKE INTO THIS INDUSTRY SO THAT I CAN SHOW PEOPLE THAT NO MATTER WHAT COLOR, SEX, GAY, OR LEZZIE, ANYTHING YOU WANT TO DO YOU CAN DO. BUT WITH THE INDUSTRY BEING SO BLAH ON DIFFERENT THINGS ITS HARD. I ALSO HAVE BEEN TRYING TO DO IT TO HELP MY FAMILY..
I LOVE MY FAMILY AND WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR THEM.. I ALSO HAVE BEING DO IT BECAUSE I HAVE THE TALENT.,BUT ANYWAY BACK ON TRACK.. SO I GOT MARRIED AND WOW 1 OF MY DREAMS CAME TRUE... PLANNING A WEDDING RECEPTION IS NO JOKE.. LOL
BEING IN LOVE IS WHAT SAVED ME AND ITS MORE THEN WORDS I CAN WRITE LIKE ITS CRAZY BUT THE ONLY PERSON THAT WAS THERE WAS MY LIL FOOT (THAT IS WHAT I CALL MY LOVER) SOON YOU WILL KNOW MORE LOL.
TRYING TO GET ACTING CASTINGS AND MODELING GIGS IS NO JOKE BUT I WONT STOP UNTIL I REACH THAT GOAL AND IT IS THE TOP.
I WILL START TO TAKE YOU BACK TO WHEN I WAS 10 YEARS OLD, BUT I WONT DO IT YET LOL
AND THEN I WILL START GOING THREW EVERYTHING SO THAT YOU CAN GET DEEPER INTO WHO I AM... UNTIL NEXT TIME.. LOVE KISSES AND HUGS.. XOXO
ONE OF THE THINGS THAT HAPPENED TO ME WAS MY FAMILY'S HOUSE WAS RATED BY COPS. I KNOW RIGHT WTF,BUT YEA THEY SAID THAT MY MOTHERS HOUSE HAD DRUGS AND THEY TOOK EVERYONE BUT LEFT MY LIL SISTER, TO BE IN THE COURT ROOM AND SEE ALL YOUR BROTHERS IN HANDCUFF AND YOUR MOM AND DAD IS SO PAINFUL, I JUST STARTED CRYING. IT WAS A HARD TIME FOR US TO GO THREW BUT WE AS A FAMILY CAME TOGETHER AND IT MADE IT OK.
ANOTHER THING WAS GETTING A PHONE CALL ONE DAY THAT MY MOM AND DAD WAS ARGUING AND THERE RELATIONSHIP WAS ON THE ICE AND WHAT I MEAN BY THAT WAS DIVORCE.!!! I MEAN 7 GREAT KIDS AND 27 YEARS TOGETHER THAT'S HARD TO THROW AWAY. SO WE HAD TO DO WHAT ANY FAMILY WOULD DO AND WE CAME TOGETHER AND TALKED ABOUT HOW CAN WE MAKE THINGS WORK.
HAVING A FATHER THAT USE TO BE THERE BUT GAVE UP ON ALL HIS KIDS IS THE WORST THING ANYONE CAN GO THREW UNTIL YOU HAVE ENOUGH. I MEAN MY DAD WAS A SUPPER DAD AND HE AND MY MOM WERE A TEAM UNTIL MY DAD GOT LAZY AND LET EVERYTHING GO. MY MOM WAS OVER IT AND SHE WAS TIRED AFTER SO MANY YEARS. BUT WE CAME TOGETHER AS A FAMILY TO TALK IT OUT.
GETTING MARRIED AND HAVING ONLY MY MOM BE THERE AND ONE OF MY BROTHERS AND MY LIL SISTER FELT LIKE NO ONE CARED BUT THEM.
I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO BRAKE INTO THIS INDUSTRY SO THAT I CAN SHOW PEOPLE THAT NO MATTER WHAT COLOR, SEX, GAY, OR LEZZIE, ANYTHING YOU WANT TO DO YOU CAN DO. BUT WITH THE INDUSTRY BEING SO BLAH ON DIFFERENT THINGS ITS HARD. I ALSO HAVE BEEN TRYING TO DO IT TO HELP MY FAMILY..
I LOVE MY FAMILY AND WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR THEM.. I ALSO HAVE BEING DO IT BECAUSE I HAVE THE TALENT.,BUT ANYWAY BACK ON TRACK.. SO I GOT MARRIED AND WOW 1 OF MY DREAMS CAME TRUE... PLANNING A WEDDING RECEPTION IS NO JOKE.. LOL
BEING IN LOVE IS WHAT SAVED ME AND ITS MORE THEN WORDS I CAN WRITE LIKE ITS CRAZY BUT THE ONLY PERSON THAT WAS THERE WAS MY LIL FOOT (THAT IS WHAT I CALL MY LOVER) SOON YOU WILL KNOW MORE LOL.
TRYING TO GET ACTING CASTINGS AND MODELING GIGS IS NO JOKE BUT I WONT STOP UNTIL I REACH THAT GOAL AND IT IS THE TOP.
I WILL START TO TAKE YOU BACK TO WHEN I WAS 10 YEARS OLD, BUT I WONT DO IT YET LOL
AND THEN I WILL START GOING THREW EVERYTHING SO THAT YOU CAN GET DEEPER INTO WHO I AM... UNTIL NEXT TIME.. LOVE KISSES AND HUGS.. XOXO
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